View Full Version : Irfan Khan on battling cancer: I trust, I've surrendered, irrespective of the outcome

20th June 2018, 14:48
MUMBAI: Bollywood actor Irrfan Khan has finally confirmed that he is suffering from a high-grade neuroendocrine cancer. He penned down a special letter that said that cancer he’d been diagnosed with was rare and had more unpredictability of its treatment.

In an emotional note, he said,

“It’s been quite sometime now since I have been diagnosed with a high-grade neuroendocrine cancer. This new name in my vocabulary, I got to know, was rare, and due to fewer study cases, and less information comparatively, the unpredictability of the treatment was more. I was part of a trial-and-error game. I had been in a different game, I was traveling on a speedy train ride, had dreams, plans, aspirations, goals, was fully engaged in them. And suddenly someone taps on my shoulder and I turn to see. It’s the TC: “Your destination is about to come. Please get down.” I am confused: “No, no. My destination hasn’t come.” “No, this is it. This is how it is sometimes.”

“The suddenness made me realize how you are just a cork floating in the ocean with UNPREDICTABLE currents! And you are desperately trying to control it.”

The hospital he’s currently being treated for cancer stating is across the road from the world famous cricket stadium, Lord’s.

He wrote, “As I was entering the hospital, drained, exhausted, listless, I hardly realized my hospital was on the opposite side of Lord’s, the stadium. The Mecca of my childhood dream. Amidst the pain, I saw a poster of a smiling Vivian Richards. Nothing happened, as if that world didn’t ever belong to me.

“This hospital also had a coma ward right above me. Once, while standing on the balcony of my hospital room, the peculiarity jolted me. Between the game of life and the game of death, there is just a road. On one side, a hospital, on the other, a stadium. As if one isn’t part of anything which might claim certainty – neither the hospital nor the stadium. That hit me hard.”

The popular Bollywood actor then revealed that he had finally surrendered himself to his fate adding that ‘the only thing certain was the uncertainty.’

He wrote, “All I could do was to realize my strength and play my game better. This realization made me submit, surrender and trust, irrespective of the outcome, irrespective of where this takes me, eight months from now, or four months from now, or two years. The concerns took a back seat and started to fade and kind of went out of my mind space.

“For the first time, I felt what ‘freedom’ truly means. It felt like an accomplishment. As if I was tasting life for the first time, the magical side of it. My confidence in the intelligence of the cosmos became absolute. I feel as if it has entered every cell of mine.”

In March this year, Irrfan had revealed he had been diagnosed with NeuroEndocrine Tumour adding that learning about the disease ‘has admittedly been difficult.’ He had written,

“The unexpected makes us grow, which is what the past few days have been. Learning that I have been diagnosed with NeuroEndocrine Tumour as of now has admittedly been difficult, but the love and strength of those around me and that I found within me has brought me to place of hope.

“The journey of this is taking me out of the country, and I request everyone to continue sending their wishes. As for the rumors that were floated, NEURO is not always about the brain and googling is the easiest way to do research. To those who waited for my words, I hope to be back with more stories to tell.”


20th June 2018, 14:50
Feeling really sad for this man he is one of the finest actor to come from sub continent.

Btw now i understand why he was there in Lords watching Pak vs Eng Test because his Hospital is just at the opposite side of lords.

20th June 2018, 14:55
Get well soon irrfan bhai, Keep believing your fortune may change.
Like your dialogue " kismat ki ek khas baat hai ki wo palat ti hai."

20th June 2018, 15:22
Sad news.He’s a wonderful actor,seems a good person and the world would mourn his loss.Let’s hope it does not come to that.

Bewal Express
20th June 2018, 22:02
May Allah grant him good health.

TM Riddle
20th June 2018, 22:26
Great actor and he's from downtown Jaipur too. I pray him a speedy recovery.

21st June 2018, 01:18
Wish you all the best and inshAllah success in your battle with cancer. Ameen

21st June 2018, 01:35
Get well soon Hero.

21st June 2018, 04:49
One of my favourite Indian actors after Naseerudin Shah, Om Puri, Amrish Puri (was a wasted talent in those useless villain roles, watch Gardish to see how sublime he was), Nana Patekar and Nawazuddin Siddiqui (although I think he usually plays the same characters).

Was amazing in Slumdog, Billu Barber, Lunchbox, Hindi Medium etc, great comedic timing too. Get well soon champ.

21st June 2018, 04:52
I really respect him a lot as a person and an actor so I wish him a speedy recovery.......How hard must it me that its out of your hands if you can survive this disease and onyl god can help you.

21st June 2018, 05:29
Brilliant actor. Only guy along with Amir Khan that I watch Bollywood movies of. May Allah make it easy for him and all the alike sufferers.